I've considered writing this post for a while, as since November I've had two (actually I suspect one, with two profiles) trolls leaving comments on my blog. I ignored it for a while, but having put some thoughts into it I've decided to do a little post on them, for me and my fellow fashion bloggers...
Dear Troll... Thank you for the effort and time you have used up posting comments on my blog.
For the record I don't post pictures of myself because I want to broadcast my appearance to the world, anything but. I do it because I quickly learnt when I started South Molton St Style that you need to put a face to it in order for people to feel able to engage with you and relate to your style and opinions on all things fashion. The edge that blogging has over an editorial piece in a magazine or a website is that it's authentic - and part of that is that the reader knows who you are, and (for me) can see that people who read my blog know I really am just a normal person.
Being just a normal person means exactly that. My weight sways within half a stone range week by week and I'd be lying if I said it didn't bother me. My figure is pretty much modelled on a bowling pin, but (as you so kindly pointed out) if I take enough photos of myself at skewed angles I can eventually get a good enough shot. I only take pictures on 'skinny days' so to have comments made about pictures I can bear of myself really did bring a tear to my eye. In summary; I try and do the best I can with the 'tools' I'm given and your comments made me feel like throwing the whole kit away completely. But only for a moment...
I was bullied pretty badly at school when I was little and your comments brought it all back to me. Only then, the bullies had the guts to pull my skirt down in the playground to my face. The girl who called me names for two years on end, I know exactly who she is. She had some degree of guts, unlike you. As you pointed out I deleted the comments you put in this post, this post and this post. I don't remove them to hide them from readers, I remove them to hide them from me. I'm putting out there Troll - it hurt me. I hope you feel better about yourself as you successfully achieved making someone else feel terrible from the safety net of your anonymity. Congratulations.
Will it stop me from blogging? No. For me it reinforces exactly why fashion blogs are necessary in this (sometimes cruel) world. I'm delighted to give girls a picture of what an actual person looks like in a new jumper, rather than a photoshopped model in a campaign or one of those very thin girls 'not posing' outside Somerset House in the freezing cold in the name of fashion (not to say there isn't a part of me who is pretty envious of them).
Granted, you'll probably see some toothpaste around my mouth, I'm probably hungover (I find it calms the nerves) and my knees could definitely do with some saving from dedicated years of cheese eating - but I like to think it adds to my charm. So here's to more outfit posts Troll... Thank you for inspiring me to keep South Molton St Style going.
PS - if you want to really hurt me next time, I'm pretty paranoid about the Gandalf white hair I'm growing at the rate of knots. You know you want to... I almost want you to too.
PPS - I looked up trolls on Pinterest, I really have no problems compared to you.